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Well, I had an interesting afternoon today. Elise was in bed for a nap, but not sleeping, rather playing in bed. I heard a thump and crying so I headed down to give her a hug as I figured she had just fallen out of bed. When I got to
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I thought everyone would be glad to know that my Easter was wonderful. John, Elise, and I took some flowers to Emma's grave before church. That morning I had been thinking how wonderful Easter must be in heaven with all the angels singing praises. I mentioned this to
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"Elise, on Easter Sunday we are going to get up really early and get dressed, you get to wear your dancing skirt and maybe we can curl our hair." "Are we going to dance?" "Yes, we can dance. Then we are going to the cemetery
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I just had to get on and write today as something wonderful happened. I came home this afternoon from a long day of testing homeschoolers with my Mom and saw a small package in my mailbox. Instantly I thought of my greatly anticipated bracelet. I waited to open the package
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I am excited about Easter coming. I am actually surprised that I can write that as I am also anticipating a very hard time that day. I was planning (whether a realistic expectation or not I am not sure) that Emma would be joining us in church Easter Sunday. Even
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Thank you all for praying. I have been doing a bit better lately, but sometimes I wonder if it is because I seriously am progressing, or if I am just repressing things. I do know that God did give me some good thoughts that helped to counteract the feelings of
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OK, I have been putting off posting because I guess I am not wanting to write what I am feeling. But, I know that you all are faithful to pray and if I want prayers for what I am going through than I must tell you how I am doing.
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Hello all. John and I are doing well the last few days. This weekend we spent some time together as a family and with my family hiking. Elise really enjoyed the time. Saturday we went together to Wal-Mart and bought new paint for Elise's room (as well as
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Good news! We got TEFRA for Emma. I received her new medicaid number in the mail yesterday as well as a phone call from DHS. For those of you who didn't hear what TEFRA is, it is a program to get medicaid to disabled children whose parents wouldn&
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I haven't posted in awhile, because it is hard for me to know right now what to post. I am overwhelmed right now by a lot of conflicting emotions and haven't even felt the strength many days to process things. For those of you that saw
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Emma's geneticist called me personally today. He said that Emma's FISH test (the second blood test) came back with nothing remarkable. The skin cells (we had asked them to take a skin sample the day of Emma's death and send it to the genetics
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I have determined that for now grief comes in waves. Every week, in fact every day, is different. Some days I am emotional and very close to tears, the next day I am very much in control and can't even cry that much even if I want to.