Personal Growth
This post might be a bit long, because I realized as I processed this a bit this week, that loneliness has been my traveling companion for quite a few years. It hasn’t always been the same, but it has been there. And I think it is that loneliness that
Personal Growth
It's interesting how much of my parenting is shaped by my experiences as a child. I struggled a lot with doubt, questions, and guilt as a child. I wanted to know the truth and rest in it, but was frustrated that my mind did not always cooperate, that
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I remember once a very long time ago, looking over at John and asking him if we would always be as in love and happy as we felt right then. We weren't married yet. I think we were engaged. For us there was never much difference between dating
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11 years ago, I woke to find my infant daughter Emma not breathing. It took awhile to accept that she was gone. I did cpr, John called 911. The paramedics worked on her in the ambulance. The doctors worked on her in the hospital. But there was no sign of
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This morning, shortly after I woke, I heard the wind. The house is surrounded by it. It rushes around the corners, whistles through any metal it finds till it vibrates and sings, and pushes the cold in through every little crack it can find. Walking to preschool this morning left
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Last Advent, I gave myself a blog challenge. I attempted to find beauty in the everyday and share it all with you in pictures. It was a good practice for me. I find that being intentional about something in our daily lives encourages reflection, processing, and really just thinking. Things
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Even though Dietrich is not the most verbally adept 3 year old, he often surprises me with his correct usage of pronouns and plurals. But obviously he is 3, so some of his phrases, though logical, are not actually grammatically correct. One such phrase: "See me." That phrase
Personal Growth
My heart has been heavy the last couple of days. I took some time to read about the most recent police shootings (both those by the police and the attack on the police). It's hard to read, to listen, and to think about these things. I would much
Family Updates
We've been in Alexandria now for 2 weeks. As John has mentioned a couple times, the next three years will mark the longest we've been in one house since we sold our house in Siloam about 6 years ago. Since then we've moved from
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The last couple of weeks have been spent doing little spurts of packing as we prepare to leave. Before that I had been doing a lot of internal processing. I've been going to counseling since the beginning of the year. My counselor mentioned to me the first time
Family Updates
In the last couple of weeks lots of things have fallen into place for our move to Alexandria. I got a job! And it's my dream job. I'll be working at a brand new shop in Old Town Alexandria called Stitch Sew Shop. And I'
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Belief is a funny thing. There are many who would say that over the last few years my beliefs have changed. And I think they have. But what I’m beginning to realize is that it has been less about change and more about discovering what I truly believed all