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Mother's Day.
Thank you all who acknowledged my sorrow as well as my joy on Mother's Day. Yesterday not only marked the first Mother's Day after Emma's death, but it was also the day she would have been 10 months old. I actually hadn't
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May 8, 2006.
We are trying to get caught up after a busy weekend. Liza, Ben, and Megan all graduated Saturday, along with some others we know as well. Yesterday, Elise and I got to enjoy a quiet day out at Grandma's, while unfortunately John had to stay home and get
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Updated posts.
I spent some time this afternoon transferring the rest of the posts of Emma's hospital stays from our old site to the new blog. So if you haven't read the whole story and wanted to, all the posts should be available on this blog now. You
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Reflection.
Emma is coming to mind a lot more these days. Where as before I could go on for several days without really thinking of her, now any little thing is enough to bring her to mind. I enjoy this reflection in a way, but it also means more tears, and
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"Why?"
I realize now that almost every day I utter that word from the depths of my heart: "Why, Lord. Why did you take my baby?" I don't really mean it literally, because it all seems so clear to me why Emma is not here. How can
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April 25, 2006.
I realized tonight that the last time I posted was fairly depressing, so I just wanted to let everyone know that we are doing much better. The waves of sadness hit hard when they do hit, but don't last long. It seems like the sadness, when it is
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A dream of Emma
I dreamed of Emma last night for the first time in awhile. For the first few days after her death I dreamed of her every night. So needless to say, I was a very sad this morning. In my dream she was not in heaven, rather I had seemingly deserted
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Our "Exciting" Afternoon.
Well, I had an interesting afternoon today. Elise was in bed for a nap, but not sleeping, rather playing in bed. I heard a thump and crying so I headed down to give her a hug as I figured she had just fallen out of bed. When I got to
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Easter 2006.
I thought everyone would be glad to know that my Easter was wonderful. John, Elise, and I took some flowers to Emma's grave before church. That morning I had been thinking how wonderful Easter must be in heaven with all the angels singing praises. I mentioned this to
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A conversation with Elise:
"Elise, on Easter Sunday we are going to get up really early and get dressed, you get to wear your dancing skirt and maybe we can curl our hair." "Are we going to dance?" "Yes, we can dance. Then we are going to the cemetery
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God's goodness and my selfishness.
I just had to get on and write today as something wonderful happened. I came home this afternoon from a long day of testing homeschoolers with my Mom and saw a small package in my mailbox. Instantly I thought of my greatly anticipated bracelet. I waited to open the package
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Easter
I am excited about Easter coming. I am actually surprised that I can write that as I am also anticipating a very hard time that day. I was planning (whether a realistic expectation or not I am not sure) that Emma would be joining us in church Easter Sunday. Even